Tuesday, February 15, 2011

My love - Hate Relationship

It is like one of those times when you are dating someone you have been besotted by, and he is just not falling for you. So you go on telling your friends how you hate the way he does not take your calls or does not hold your hand during the most romantic movie scenes. You go on listing out the things you can’t stand, habits you hate and stuff u wish he had in him. But when your gurlies ask you the question then why do you still have him on the last dialled and still why you keep his picture under the pile of clothes, why u still call him to tell him what a bad day you had or why he would be your first choice to go for that concert you have been dying to attend.
My relationship with this city is on the same grounds. So the fascination started long back when I had walked the streets of old Bombay with my daddy dear, it seems in another lifetime. The city was enchanting for its old architecture, amazing for the its magnitude and capacity. It was luring as possibilities of life seemed endless as the sea i was mesmerized with. Those were the days when a starry eyed teenager fell for this adonis of a city. Universe conspired to bring me to my love and somehow i was in my city of dreams.
Here i am living in mumbai but whenever I speak to my out of city friends I cannot stop complaining about how I hate the crowded trains and how I wish roads were wider and traffic signals went off sooner. How I whine about the filth and poverty everywhere. How i always am busy and everything seems so far. But when they fall in line and start picking faults and try to convince me to move; i vehemently defend my love.
Because even now the neon lights fire up my dreams, Till this day the buzzing traffic at two in the morning gives me a sense of security, I still am in love with the feeling of being near sea shores, I can not believe that my hunger for different experiences can be satiated by any other single place, I know for sure that even after living here for years i wil always have a new place to visit, new person to meet and a new thing to do and a new dream to live. I am in love with my city as much as i was as a young girl.